emmaelisabeth

Ohne dich kann ich nicht sein... Mit dir bin ich auch allein. Ohne dich zähl ich die Stunden ohne dich. Mit dir stehen die Sekunden... Lohnen nicht ohne dich.
Das Atmen fällt mir ach so schwer - und die Vögel singen nicht mehr.

It was not long since they stood this close to each other. But something was radically different. I can imagine it looked like an old scene, from when they stood whispering sweet words into each others' ears, though the fundamentals of the scene was quite altered. She leaned in even closer and whispered, her lips touching his cheek, she could hear the panic in her voice even before the words were uttered:

"You can't make me disappear just because you say it's over."

A tear tried to escape from her eye. Not here, she thought. She tried to detach herself from her emotions, tried to look indifferent. Tried to casually wipe the tear away. She felt her grace making room for the panic. Soon she wouldn't be able to control herself.

"I'm going crazy not seeing you. I think about you every minute."

And then he looked away. Before, his eyes comforting hers. Now they looked dead into the distant.

"I know. But it's over." He turned away, now not only his eyes distant. His whole frame stiffened when she came near. Like what a week ago would be thought of as "not close enough", now was imposing. He took a step back, then turned around and walked away. She stood for a minute, or more like a second, feeling the deep longing for him in her heart growing. Brace yourself, she thought, now's the rough part. Do NOT go after him.

"Come back here! Where not finished! You don't care anymore, is that it?!"

People turning. Looking. Judging. Thinking she was pathetic. He did not want her. She should back off. But she didn't even notice. I cannot breath without him.

"It doesn't matter", the coldness in his voice gone, "it doesn't matter how I feel!"

"Then tell me you don't love me!" He has to love me. "Say it!" His eyes going from cold to normal, then showing some sort of dread. Of losing her? Of her not getting it?

"Is that what you need to hear? Will that help? I don't." Right there. That's the exact moment that she died. "I don't, now let me go!"

"No... no! A person doesn't just wake up and stop loving somebody!"

"No wait. Calm down."

"Don't do that. Don't you do that damn it! Don't talk to me like I'm some stupid..."